12. Thirty-fourth monthsary.

I'm blogging at workplace now and I'm so happy that I'm only left with 4 days more! Hehe no more morning shift no more waking up at 7am and no more working till 9pm! Yay!!!

Anyhow, below are the pictures took on last Sunday! It was my niece's baby shower. Her name is Kyrie and her elder sister is Kylie.

I first brought boyfriend home was on Kylie's baby shower. It was our fifth monthsary and last Sunday was our thirty-fourth monthsary! Gosh so memorable!

I was wearing my new heels and it was hurting me so badly but I'm still so in love with it! It was the last brand new pair!!! So happy so happy! HAHA ^^

Bf and I going to have mask session today so I'll blog about it tomorrow!

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11. You're my Valentine.

Third Valentine's day spent with my boyfriend which I really think it's a blessing! He baked cookies for me on the first year, brought me to USS on the second year and he brought me to a Japanese and Western Vegetarian restaurant this year!

I'm on vegetarian course for a 100days and my bf being sucha sweetie pie, actually went to research on yummy vegetarian meal that is akin to my liking! But i got carried away while watching Journey 2: The mysterious island that I don't even know how much nachos I've stuffed myself with!

Gosh I feel that I've let him down coz I only had a small portion of creamy spaghetti despite that he did so much research! My poor boy had no choice but to eat vegetarian burger and also my share of fish!

Simple but perfect day spent with my boy!
Love you always!

Side track:
CAN MY HAIR GROW FASTER?!

10. Sweetie boy.

I just submitted deferment form for school and also quit my job a few days ago! I'm planning to rest for a few months before finding a new job or probably go back to school?

Reasons being I'm too tired. It has been months since she left me and I've returned back to work straight after I'm done settling all the paper work. It's quite tiring you know? Everything crush upon me within a night. From a little girl that know nuts about everything of house affairs till now, a lady who handles everything by herself. I've to get at least 8 years older over a night.

I'm tired of keeping everything to myself and sick of everyone who said that they will always be there for me. Are you dead serious? Face the reality, no one can be there for you always.

"I'm fine" or "don't worry I'm coping well" are all fucking lies I've been saying to make myself look stronger.
But even a strongest wall might collapse you know?

Actually..Im fucking not fine and I'm not coping well coz it's so stressful and life seriously fuck me up too badly this time round.

I miss my life at prcs, at underground, at 230, at 85 and anywhere that I could find peace and joy.

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09. Tenth Year.

朋友，我很想你。你好吗？很久没聊心事，很久没一起睡觉，很久没有一起逛街，很久没见面了，可是你要知道我们是一辈子的最好最好最好的朋友。希望你在忙碌的生活里没有忘记我这个朋友。读书要用功可是不能给自己太大的压力， 要放轻松，你给自己太大的压力了，所以不是你做得不够好。知道吗？朋友可以交很多很多可是眼睛要睁大，不要给人利用了。知道吗？你要知道，你看的不代表就是真的。你听的也不代表一定是对的。你要记得人心险恶。炸的食物不要吃那么多，要多喝水，白开水ok不是冷水。要坚强，是你就是你的。不要太固执，最后伤害最深的只有你自己。

永远爱绍慧的惠鸾。

08. Break the Cycle

 

I met her last night. I felt her touch and her warmth. Even till now, she still constantly remind me to wash my own laundry, she still constantly remind me to stay away from them and she still constantly warn me about him.

I saw what you have seen, in fact months or years back we have all seen, have all been hurt and yet I still chose this path to walk.
Coz I believe we will end when our fate ends. Yes I know you don't want me to end up like you and you want me to break the cycle.

I need some time to take back everything I've put in. I will work hard from now on and I will go there as frequently as I can.

I hope everything I am doing is good for you. I miss you so dearly. I hope I will be able to see you without their help after everything I am going to do.

Goodbye, and have a safe journey my dearest.

07. Meant to be

Suddenly there's so much things that fall on me, what's happening? Good days are over, its a brand new start of my life. I have so much to do yet so little time! Gosh so many errands to run and so many plans to complete. I want a carefree live! Oh gawd please spare me from all these!
I'm trying my best to go there every single day and hope for a miracle.
Thus, no matter what outcome or how little days are left, at least I tried and would have no regrets.
I hope They could feel it, I hope They could spare you from all these torments, I hope They could see all I've done and tried, and I hope They could let you live till old.

I know you..or rather we are not prepared but yada hope you understand!

Luv chu always :)

06. Back to space.

I've finally refurnished my room like..a few months ago immediately after I got my pay! HAHA. I've painted the walls with 'Scarlet' paint, fixed the black blinds, and hang 'flims of pictures' on my wall! :) Oh I bought black furry carpets and placed it in between my bed and my console table. I didn't know adding such little new stuffs would cost me $400. omg! 没钱不行啊!

 Ohmygawd look at this little girl, so cute right! Hehe :3

You're always on my mind xo.

Met my sissygurl yesterday and we went to Loyang temple to pray! HAHA We were getting the divine lots and guess whut? We both gotten the number 18 lots. Nb damn xuey right. It's not a good lots anyway. 下签. Even bad things also must togehter with her omg. 

Edit till so ugly still dare to say my face like 'wa so xinfu'.

HAHAHA even an idiot also can see my face like kena force one right!

I brought you there is to give you a hope, a hope that you've been yearning for and also a chance, a chance for yourself to let it go. Smile on girl xo